Was muss ich sagen

I have a little problem lately, around 1-2 weeks. I wanna say it frontally, but it is too rude (I understand it). I'm going to say honestly to this person, well yeah I am not brave enough you know.. Moreover, I have unstable emotion. People can't guess what happen next according to my feeling. Anyway, that's ain't the real 'lil problem here that I want to talk.

This is usual little problem actually, it is boy-problem zzzhhh yawwnnn and bored lmao kidding. yes it's serious! I need help and way too PANIC, so I was directly chat with my trusted friends ever ::D  So, yeah to the point is, I don't like him, but this words sound so rude! I know he is a good guy, I can't accept him in my life. Only as a friend and my mom totally agree with my decision (thanks mom).

I have to arrange the nice sentences to tell. The biggest problem is, I am coward to say it directly. I don't wanna make him too disappointed. But how??? I am not as good as you think. Heloo boy, I am not that good, as you know.

• How to say "I wanna talk to you"
• How to say "I don't like you"
• How to say "I refuse you"
• How to say "I am sorry"

 yeahh those words are too risk and I need the nice ones. The most important thing is, HOW CAN I SAY IT BRAVELY???
How can I get my strength back? I don't have any strength to tell the truth and to be honest person. I might be a rude person, childish, and annoying. I know and admit it for sure, yeap that's all my weaknesses. I am still growing-up child and learn how to be mature person. Egoistic and being so emotional also my negative behavior. All I need is learn to think maturely yet rationally and how to act well-behave. Someone tell me that I don't have any respect and loose of patient to everyone around. Sometimes, I act without thinking others feeling and situation, so that's why people think that I am so impatient and less respect. actually yea!

I need people to teach me how to behave correctly, but NOT BEING BACKSTABBER. It means, talking from behind and being nice to me at the front! Just say it, if you don't like me, directly please!
and that's why I'm not too trust with many people, only a few.

spill it!

Imagination story part one

zzzz.. I still fallen sleep in the morning. My mom have been knock my bedroom door since 20 twenty minutes ago, but I don't really wanna get up from my bed. "hooaamm, yes mom whaaat?? It's saturday, I don't need to get up this early today..". This is so annoying for me. I look at my cool watch and it's still 7 am, well at least I'll have my breakfast at 8 am. As usual, my mom serves bread or wheat bread and a glass of milk or tea for my breakfast. Nothin' wrong with that, it's just I slept late last night. I had to do many things, campus stuff!! My friends and I will arrange something like volksfestival. so, enough with that, that's not the point. Not only that, I have so many tasks and assignments to do. well well well enough! -__-

As I said before, I live in Beverly Hills, California, USA. And stay in luxury yet gracious house like in 90210 hehhe. I live with my mom, my dad, and my twin.My name is Kimberly Louisian, just call me Kim. My twin sister's name is Katarina Louisian, just call her Kate. We both really love pink, but we have different goal in life. I wanna be a professional jazz hip hop dancer and she wanna be a band singer in London. Speaking of London, Kate and I live separate away. I took math in UCLA and she took marketing school in London. Besides that, I also teach Deutsch in college so I have much money now (jk) hhaa

I have short vacation this week so I don't need to meet my TWO-FACES friends in campus, they're so annoying. I know they have been stabbed me from behind for a long time, but it doesn't matter because I still have many friends everywhere I go. Do I have to mention the names?? I guess not. I don't wanna expose people negative side. haaa I have plan to visit Kate in London, yay!! I had buy a ticket, only one ticket. My dad and my mom really way busy doing their business in California. I'll take off on Tuesday from airport. wohooo I can't wait! I'm way too excited to visit Kate. Nevertheless, it's not only visit Kate but also visit her friends, Draco and Dante.

I pack my clothes into my travel bag. I only stay five days in London, so don't need bring to much carry. ofc I MUST BRING MUCH MONEY ;D yeah that's my habit, shopping all the way but not too over limit like those asshole, jerk, f*ck Hollywood celebrity a.k.a Paris Hilton and the gank hehhehe okay stop mentioning that disgusting name hahaha

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I have arrived in London, Kate stay in fabulous Apartment. I come by taxi to her apartment and make a surprise!! tok tok tok ... I knock from the outside and also push the bell button. "ok wait up!" yell Kate with her new BRITISH ACCENT. I feel so nervous... waaaaaa WAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??? okay okay calm.. hah I really miss my twin, Kate. "OH-MY-EFFING-GOD.... I've missed youu" with very well excited voice. We both yelling out loud and all people that across Kate's room looking at us like a strangers haha. We both go inside.. "Actually I'm doing my marketing assignment now" said Kate. yeah a lot of things to do. but I'll go to London Marketing School tomorrow. I wanna visit her college here and meet new friends, like Draco and Dante. These boys like, Kate bodyguard lol kidding. Draco and Dante are Kate's close friends in college, but not in the same class.

Kate and I wake up around 9-ish am. We both have the first breakfast together in London, but I serve the breakfast menu all by my self. For the first morning, I serve cereal, bread, juice, and milk. Kate eats cereal and juice for the breakfast and I eat bread and milk. In hurry, Kate on her way to college. I just looking around for the entire apartment and enjoying London's view. "I think, imma gonna visit Kate's college". At 2 pm I'm going to London Marketing School by Bus. Then, I arrive in college around 3.15 pm. So, I'm waiting at cafe near the College.

at London Marketing School.....

*TO BE CONTINUE

say hellooo

hey guys! It's already long time I'm not post anything on my blog, so just wait. I've been searching some inspiration. I'll be post something worth here (haha maybe).

SEE YA SOON

had random stuff on saturday night

This are pictures with my best friend in junior high school or my chairmate. Our house not really far, so I came to her house to had some fun. Well actually we had nothing to do except took a pics. Otherwise, I'm so bored at home. yeah, as usual what's girls do besides did random things like took a pics. We changed in many different outfits. oh yea I forgot, her name is Adela Theda Septari. Dela, most of her high school friends called with that name but I called her with Theda. doesn't matter ....

 

 

 

 

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BY. FOXYLICIOUS

Lyric

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd 

Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

I'm sure y'll know about this song lyric. yesss Ronan Keating-when you say nothing at all. I feel so lucky if there's someone singing this song for me. I love it more than anything. this song really mean to me. well actually, idk what I want to write in this blog, but I wanna write something. so I just show y'll my favorite lyric. yep!! love is wonderful, love is pain. love has a happy ending. love not always has a happy ending. this words on the lyric seems promising, but it's not always like that. us or them just trying to keep it that way. it's hard!! yes it is.who said love is not a big deal?? the truth, love is really a big matter. love is about being hurt. from that hurt we can stand up and learn something meaningful. so don't blame the situation. we have walk through the complicated situation, face it, and finish it! don's be such a coward. I had a curious question, why is he had to be like that? it doesn't matter. all passed... I don't even care anymore. at least we still friends.