Was muss ich sagen

I have a little problem lately, around 1-2 weeks. I wanna say it frontally, but it is too rude (I understand it). I'm going to say honestly to this person, well yeah I am not brave enough you know.. Moreover, I have unstable emotion. People can't guess what happen next according to my feeling. Anyway, that's ain't the real 'lil problem here that I want to talk.

This is usual little problem actually, it is boy-problem zzzhhh yawwnnn and bored lmao kidding. yes it's serious! I need help and way too PANIC, so I was directly chat with my trusted friends ever ::D  So, yeah to the point is, I don't like him, but this words sound so rude! I know he is a good guy, I can't accept him in my life. Only as a friend and my mom totally agree with my decision (thanks mom).

I have to arrange the nice sentences to tell. The biggest problem is, I am coward to say it directly. I don't wanna make him too disappointed. But how??? I am not as good as you think. Heloo boy, I am not that good, as you know.

• How to say "I wanna talk to you"
• How to say "I don't like you"
• How to say "I refuse you"
• How to say "I am sorry"

 yeahh those words are too risk and I need the nice ones. The most important thing is, HOW CAN I SAY IT BRAVELY???
How can I get my strength back? I don't have any strength to tell the truth and to be honest person. I might be a rude person, childish, and annoying. I know and admit it for sure, yeap that's all my weaknesses. I am still growing-up child and learn how to be mature person. Egoistic and being so emotional also my negative behavior. All I need is learn to think maturely yet rationally and how to act well-behave. Someone tell me that I don't have any respect and loose of patient to everyone around. Sometimes, I act without thinking others feeling and situation, so that's why people think that I am so impatient and less respect. actually yea!

I need people to teach me how to behave correctly, but NOT BEING BACKSTABBER. It means, talking from behind and being nice to me at the front! Just say it, if you don't like me, directly please!
and that's why I'm not too trust with many people, only a few.

spill it!

Imagination story part one

zzzz.. I still fallen sleep in the morning. My mom have been knock my bedroom door since 20 twenty minutes ago, but I don't really wanna get up from my bed. "hooaamm, yes mom whaaat?? It's saturday, I don't need to get up this early today..". This is so annoying for me. I look at my cool watch and it's still 7 am, well at least I'll have my breakfast at 8 am. As usual, my mom serves bread or wheat bread and a glass of milk or tea for my breakfast. Nothin' wrong with that, it's just I slept late last night. I had to do many things, campus stuff!! My friends and I will arrange something like volksfestival. so, enough with that, that's not the point. Not only that, I have so many tasks and assignments to do. well well well enough! -__-

As I said before, I live in Beverly Hills, California, USA. And stay in luxury yet gracious house like in 90210 hehhe. I live with my mom, my dad, and my twin.My name is Kimberly Louisian, just call me Kim. My twin sister's name is Katarina Louisian, just call her Kate. We both really love pink, but we have different goal in life. I wanna be a professional jazz hip hop dancer and she wanna be a band singer in London. Speaking of London, Kate and I live separate away. I took math in UCLA and she took marketing school in London. Besides that, I also teach Deutsch in college so I have much money now (jk) hhaa

I have short vacation this week so I don't need to meet my TWO-FACES friends in campus, they're so annoying. I know they have been stabbed me from behind for a long time, but it doesn't matter because I still have many friends everywhere I go. Do I have to mention the names?? I guess not. I don't wanna expose people negative side. haaa I have plan to visit Kate in London, yay!! I had buy a ticket, only one ticket. My dad and my mom really way busy doing their business in California. I'll take off on Tuesday from airport. wohooo I can't wait! I'm way too excited to visit Kate. Nevertheless, it's not only visit Kate but also visit her friends, Draco and Dante.

I pack my clothes into my travel bag. I only stay five days in London, so don't need bring to much carry. ofc I MUST BRING MUCH MONEY ;D yeah that's my habit, shopping all the way but not too over limit like those asshole, jerk, f*ck Hollywood celebrity a.k.a Paris Hilton and the gank hehhehe okay stop mentioning that disgusting name hahaha

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I have arrived in London, Kate stay in fabulous Apartment. I come by taxi to her apartment and make a surprise!! tok tok tok ... I knock from the outside and also push the bell button. "ok wait up!" yell Kate with her new BRITISH ACCENT. I feel so nervous... waaaaaa WAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??? okay okay calm.. hah I really miss my twin, Kate. "OH-MY-EFFING-GOD.... I've missed youu" with very well excited voice. We both yelling out loud and all people that across Kate's room looking at us like a strangers haha. We both go inside.. "Actually I'm doing my marketing assignment now" said Kate. yeah a lot of things to do. but I'll go to London Marketing School tomorrow. I wanna visit her college here and meet new friends, like Draco and Dante. These boys like, Kate bodyguard lol kidding. Draco and Dante are Kate's close friends in college, but not in the same class.

Kate and I wake up around 9-ish am. We both have the first breakfast together in London, but I serve the breakfast menu all by my self. For the first morning, I serve cereal, bread, juice, and milk. Kate eats cereal and juice for the breakfast and I eat bread and milk. In hurry, Kate on her way to college. I just looking around for the entire apartment and enjoying London's view. "I think, imma gonna visit Kate's college". At 2 pm I'm going to London Marketing School by Bus. Then, I arrive in college around 3.15 pm. So, I'm waiting at cafe near the College.

at London Marketing School.....

*TO BE CONTINUE

say hellooo

hey guys! It's already long time I'm not post anything on my blog, so just wait. I've been searching some inspiration. I'll be post something worth here (haha maybe).

SEE YA SOON

had random stuff on saturday night

This are pictures with my best friend in junior high school or my chairmate. Our house not really far, so I came to her house to had some fun. Well actually we had nothing to do except took a pics. Otherwise, I'm so bored at home. yeah, as usual what's girls do besides did random things like took a pics. We changed in many different outfits. oh yea I forgot, her name is Adela Theda Septari. Dela, most of her high school friends called with that name but I called her with Theda. doesn't matter ....

 

 

 

 

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BY. FOXYLICIOUS

Lyric

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd 

Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

I'm sure y'll know about this song lyric. yesss Ronan Keating-when you say nothing at all. I feel so lucky if there's someone singing this song for me. I love it more than anything. this song really mean to me. well actually, idk what I want to write in this blog, but I wanna write something. so I just show y'll my favorite lyric. yep!! love is wonderful, love is pain. love has a happy ending. love not always has a happy ending. this words on the lyric seems promising, but it's not always like that. us or them just trying to keep it that way. it's hard!! yes it is.who said love is not a big deal?? the truth, love is really a big matter. love is about being hurt. from that hurt we can stand up and learn something meaningful. so don't blame the situation. we have walk through the complicated situation, face it, and finish it! don's be such a coward. I had a curious question, why is he had to be like that? it doesn't matter. all passed... I don't even care anymore. at least we still friends.

From Another Angle

 

 

 

Schmuggeln Sie Spitzen meines Lebens

Tonstreifen, die mit mir geschehen

1. Lollipop-Lil' Wayne: My bestfriend and I really like this hip hop song and we had being crazy around with this song lol
   
2. Get Back-Demi Lovato: hmm I listened it when I wanna "do over" with my ex bf but I thought it's too prestige. so for now I don't wanna do that thing anymore in the end of relationship. it's really immature beg someone else. I assure that won't happen again. I gotta with my point.
   
3. When I grow up-Pussycat Dolls: yeaa because I wanna be superstar and I'm trying for it. soon guys! lol
   
4. Rich Girl-Gwen feat. Eve: well I'm as not rich as those Hollywood stars and celebrities. everyone wanna be a rich aite. so Imma gonna rich with my own effort.
5. Is not over-Daughtry: this guy at campus TOTALLY break me down!! shit! lmao. although we haven't related each other. so what can I do besides sitting and regret to now him. I'd better not know him. I thought he is the right guy, because I've been looking around for this kind of guy or man. well IT WAS!!
   
6. This is me-Demi Lovato: I'm not that brave to show my ability how good am I. This song gimme experience that "we have to show who we are" and not being afraid of something or someone else. I have to show it!
   
7. Barbie-Aqua: simple. I love Barbie :D
   
8. Backstabber-Ke$ha: those Backstabbers always around me and stick from behind. they really behave like an immature. omg you guys NOT EVEN BETTER! just please stop talking me behind and it's NOT EVEN WORTH. if you brave enough, talk this face to face and I can tolarate (a lil bit).
   
9. Good Girls go bad-Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester: haha well yeah I do many bad things these days. it's fine! hidden.. my family not know it. sorry this is really what I want and I've been being tide on for very looooonggg time. free!!
   
10. Nobody's Perfect-Miley Cyrus: everyone isn't perfect and so do I. please forgive my behaviour :)

Wie man Phantasie und einen sagenhaften Traum schafft

haloo ci.. that's how they call me. I'm not responding them because I'm not in the mood that time. So, what I've been doing then...
I'm just sitting on a comfort chair in balcony and look around the scenery, I've almost missing those beautiful green from the trees and a great shape from the mountain. where am I...
I'm in part of that luxurious house, is located in the middle of quite town.. so calm and silent. nothing crowd to worry about, i'm just enjoying the rest of my time in that town. People, crowd, fake, show off, blings life, I'm so bored with that. I gotta move to that town soon.
This house... yesshh so glamor but looked comfort yet simple. made from bricks, such a old house and artsy. I love artsy house, not fabulous with blings but fabulous from another angle.


There's traditional living room: the wall made from bricks, there's a comfort animal print sofa, a few pot plants on every side, old paintings, peach curtain, standing lamp, open window so the air come and out easily, table, statue, the floor made from brown wood, and a fire spot.


In the inside I can find a few rooms, 4 Schlafzimmer, 2 Gastezimmer, Bibliothek, 2 Arbeitezimmer, 3 Badezimmer, 1 Schaffungzimmer, 1 Tanz-Studio, Gym, und so weiter.
Es gibt die Kuche, der Balcon, und der Platzt.
hahha I know it's too much, but at least this house still looks simple for me a.k.a artsy.
someone call me loudly, I look behind ooohhh there's my best friends come to see me. we
will have a great activities to do along this vacation. I forgot something!!!
I serve a pot of tea, and some of the tea cup, ginger cookies, choco cookies, brot, and ohh yaaa and kaffee fur the guys.
enjoy the snack "downtown made" I bring the magazine and the newspaper out, and my parents waving at us and said "take your time kids"

Alle über mich

what have been  happen to me is actually unpredictable. I got so many problems these days and I don't know how to fix this because I don't have any bravery to clearing up. what do I have supposed to do, I just wanna be like an adult and so mature. I know it's hard to act mature, but I have to. I'm a college lady, in that case I'm NOT a kid anymore so I gotta change my behavior and be grow up. not like those girls who behave like an asshole lmaorofl :P ohhh yaaa those girls are FAKE!!

My BOREDOME routines:. goin' to campus, study and meet my friends, lunch, back to my dorm or my friend's dorm hehe, doin chores, study, take a rest for a while, and playing around. But I NEVER BORED to meet my seniors!!! They're TOTALLY FUN and I really enjoy with them. I like being fun with my seniors because they never show off like my other friends. so that's why NEVER EVER NEGATIVE THINKING TO MY SENIORS.

It's raining here, so crap!! I cant go anywhere, I hate raining. make me sick!

whatever it is, I gotta focus on my college. I want great GPA :D

wohooo I gotta back to Jakarta in one week. I have so many plans to make, like family gathering, mom and dad day, spazieren gehen mit beste Freunde. I miss Karina so much <3

Karina and I have a huge plan hehhe.. meet you soon.

I HATE RAIN

Taylor Momsen and The Pretty Reckless

She's Taylor Momsen and She's still 15 years old.

omg She totally young and 3 years different from me lol (of course)

She is starring Gossip Girl as Jenny Humphrey.

I like her style tho and her life on GG pretty close like mine.

Being ditch by other upper east siders.

I'm NOT a socialite or upper east, but my best friend and I called us as Downtown Hipster

lol hahaha kidding, that's just us!!

but now!! a lil J NOT little anymore, she's become Queen Bee to replace Blair Waldorf.

Not only starring GG but also vocalist from her own band called The Pretty Reckless

The only Indie Band I liked with their hits BLENDER.

 

 

 

 

I called her Karlie Kloss

All I know about Karlie Kloss that She's a GREAT SUPER MODEL and FABULOUS BALERINA from America. She looks so Sophisticated with her own simple style.

Say hello to the morning shine

what!! I don't know what to do except studying for mid term test, hanging out with friends, shopping, and doing my chores. NO where to go in here LOL i'm stuck. but they all nice here.

what i've been doin in Jatinangor is worth, like new social friends and new environment, I'm doing better in here and all people really respect to me. not in Jakarta, they're so individualism and like to show off each other. euwww..

Not only that, I found my new crush here (i'm not sure either) lol

on the other way i'm SO NOT up to date about gossip,movies,and any other stuff! arghhh but it's not a big deal. I still read fashion magazine tho, but where i have supposed to buy that fancy clothes??? 0_o

doesnt matter.. am wochenende gehe ich nach bandung.

ahhh thats all for now, I have no idea what i wanna write today.

but the point is... I got crush on someone close to me waaaaaaa ZLMAOROFLCOPTER

The skulls are cool

 

meet the college girls

whooops finally I made the new posting. I made the new one because I forgot the blog password for the last time LOL.

This blog will show you the new me as a college lady. Absolutely talking about fashion, international life style, music, movies, gossip, and any other things.

Hey I'll write about me either of course!

it's all what's the inside of pink, gold, and black.